Sex with my husband

So I had sex with my husband last night. And I know that must sound like a “big deal” type of statement. But here is the kicker – is has been over two years since I last had sex with my husband.

After that night I had sex with Mark, I just always seemed to find an excuse not to have sex with Jeff. That first month I was too sore with my broken wrist. And then once I found I was carrying Mark’s baby, I didn’t want Jeff inside me. It just seemed wrong on some level I can’t explain.

Jeff was sweet and always understanding when I told him I did not feel in the mood for sex. I told him the pregnancy was hurting my sexual desire. And that was good enough for him.

Then after my baby was born, I told him it would take awhile for me to recover. Well, months past and I was still not in the mood.

The real problem was that I was having sex with Mark. And I just couldn’t have sex with Mark and then happily have sex with my husband. My body froze at the thought. And whenever Jeff touched me I was repulsed.

I think this must be a man versus woman thing. For I know Mark was still happily having sex with Lisa during our affair. And that always bothered me that he could do that.

Anyway, since I ended the affair a week ago I have been craving sex. I thought this would be a good time to establish normal relations with my husband.

So we sent the kids to his parents last night. We had a nice romantic dinner. And I really tried to keep thoughts of Mark out of my mind.

As we drove home I was dreading thoughts of having sex with him. When we got him he started to kiss me. When his hand touched my breasts my body tensed. I just wanted to end this quick. I quickly undressed him and myself. I pulled him down on top of me and I guided his penis into me. Thankfully, as soon as he entered me he ejaculated.

He rolled over and went to sleep. I jumped in the shower. Then I went on the computer and surfed the web all night.