Free at last!

I finally ended today a destructive affair that has lasted over two years! Looking back, I can’t believe the depths I have sank over the past two years.

I doubt that anyone will read this blog. Mostly I see this as a journal to help me with my recovery. I will also look back at what happened and try to figure out where I went wrong.

My story is too long to relate in one post. I will probably share details as I re-evaluate what happened.

My thoughts are scattered. I apologize if this post seems to be a random mess.

I have experienced the range of emotions from relief to utter depression. Even though I ended it, I can’t believe that it is over. I have been crying most the day. My poor husband doesn’t know what is wrong with me.

Should I tell him the truth? Or would that just unnecessarily hurt him?

I don’t know. Those questions can wait. I just need to get through the night.